sky down to the sea, but I can only see it when you're here; here with me."

True dat. So, a lot has been going on lately, not that any of you are really that interested, but oh well. I like writing to myself. Hence I keep a real journal that nobody can read haha.


Cats.
So, on Friday, my cat had another kitten, and this one WILL live. We can't lose another kitten due to her neglect as a mother. She's doing alright for the most part, but if it starts going downhill again, we're going to find out how to feed it ourselves. It's a boy, by the way. I've named it Bean. He's black and white and looks like a baby puppy haha. Cute.


Jacob.
Last night I was able to talk to Jacob via webcam again, which was really nice because I haven't been able to see him like that for a while. And this time, we used Skype, which is SO much faster than Meebo or Stickam. God. That's hell. So, I thought my webcam would actually work for more than two minutes before my computer would shut off. And well, it did... When I was just testing it. But come video call time, he could only hear me, not see me. I was so shy to talk though haha. But my mother started talking to me in the middle of it, so I had to yell up to her a lot. Jacob says I'm cute when I argue. That's a load of crap, haha. But another thing, two of my cats started chasing each other, howling and hissing throughout the house. Jacob freaked out and I couldn't stop laughing hahaha. Awesome.
What sort of bothered me though, was that he doesn't really stay as serious as usual when he's on the webcam. I mean, I love seeing him laugh and making him happy; that's all I want, but when I try to be serious about something he gets shy and hides behind a hat or something. Or he'll just get really quiet and not talk about the subject that he'd probably talk about on the phone or otherwise. I don't know. It's not a big deal; I'm just over-reading it. I'll say something about it later haha.
I keep having the most realistic dreams about him. Which, surprisingly, leads to the next topic.


Dreams.
My dreams are becoming more and more real with each night. I sometimes wake up feeling... I don't know exactly. Haha. But my dreams are filled with things that always happen, or things I always do. I'm always having dreams of events that will happen the next day, and dreams of waking up to go to those events or do things that will happen. It confuses the fuck out of me when I wake up, because I would think I already did something, but then have to wake up to go do it.
I have dreams of doing little things like sending texts, talking on the phone, eating, listening to a song where the lyrics are just as they are in real life, and I notice every little thing where I am. It all comes together to create the illusion of real life, and I hate it. Yet... I know when I'm awake, but I can't tell when I'm asleep.
Cool.


Music progress.
This is probably the subject I've most wanted to talk about. Some of you know my music myspace, [link] where I post all of my covers and written songs. Yeah. Well, I've lately wanted to be able to write with someone else, because I know I won't really go anywhere as a 14 year old solo artists who doesn't know a lot about music and the industry. It would just be easier to play with someone else for me, and probably a lot more fun to perform with.
So, the other day I received a message from this guy Corey, asking if I could check out his material and maybe collab with him. I was really excited and said yes even before I listened to his stuff, but even so, I don't regret it. He's good, so I wasn't making a mistake haha. Now we text all the time, discussing ideas and what not. He lives about 20 minutes away from me, so that's great. We're planning to meet at the teen center here, or at the mall, so we can hang out and talk about things.
He tells me he can get us a set at Hot Topic, because he works there, and at some other shops and places around here. I'll do the singing, and possibly playing as well, and he'll just play. He knows he's not that good of a singer, so that's why he wanted to collab with someone. We're both really excited, and we'll see how this goes.